a hodge-podge of funkiness

2003-12-29T01:00:00.000-06:00

i no longer blog...if it has not been clear up to this point...i hope that it is now..

this is not to say that i will never blog again...
this is only to say...do not send me nasty emails telling me to...if you know me...you should know that these tactics do not work...and if you really know me..you know that something better is to come...

love you all...thanks for reading thus far...hope you haven't been bored or disappointed...

i wish i had a poem...but i don't...e

2003-11-03T15:19:00.000-06:00

i've slept in three different hotels this week...will i ever stop? yes...but not any time soon...

i'm really happy....e

2003-10-26T15:31:00.000-06:00

having a luv-a-ly day...e

2003-10-25T10:15:00.000-05:00

just so everyone knows...MY last blog wasn't in anger...it was making fun of andrew jones...ballad of a thin man.blogspot.com....athank you...e

2003-10-25T10:09:00.000-05:00

MY blog will never be less self-referential...it is MY blog.
MY blog is about MY life and the things that happen to ME and to MY friends (who also happen to be bloggers)
others read MY blog because it will let them know where I am at.
some read MY blog to know how to better pray for ME.
you cannot email ME from MY blog because I don't care what you think.
all those opinions that i do care about already have MY email address. (except for a few in england...and those of you who are loved by me are not to take offense to the last statement if you have lost or never had MY email)
these are a few reasons why I started to blog.
I did not want to blog at first because I thought it silly.
however, I have a hard time keeping up with all the people that God has put in my path over the past two years...so we blog to keep up with one another.
so if you think these blogging reasons are lame...then...
DON'T read MY blog...it will always be about something that has affected ME! thank you...e

2003-10-22T10:32:00.000-05:00

HONEY....I'M HOOOOOOOMMMMMME!!!!!! SHOCKING BEHAVIOR...I KNOW...i was all wrapped up in "it is freakin' cold out here" garb...when i stepped off the plane...met with a big hug from my sister and my mom ran in and said those words that only mom can say..."hey babygirl, i'm so glad my baby is home!"....tender warm fuzzies to say the least....and then a huge happy moment when nathan came over...(and gave me an amazing bag'o'goodies..that were too expensive to mail to the czech republic)...we stayed up way past our bedtimes and talked and hugged and laughed...

i do feel the need to blog about the amazing meal of wild geese...two to be exact...that andrew made the night i left and we drank wine that i bought in rioja this summer....company was great...i miss those guys already...

.....and i can't wait...already ready to come to austin....my bags are not unpacked....i am going to say some hellos and cut some hair here in h-town and then be on my way....i need to get some big hugs in here as well....

oh...stace...i think my t-shirt would say...hey shitheads--come be church with us!
no...i would never say that.....mwahahahahahahah!!!

2003-10-19T09:36:00.000-05:00

ready to come home...i thought reading blogs would make me feel better...not that i feel low...just wanna come home...it is cold here...the birds have already gone south...which means i should have left about 2 weeks ago...this bird is cold and needing the warmth of good friends...and real hot chocolate...i could write cheesy hallmark cards...e

2003-10-06T11:28:00.000-05:00

back in england...having a great time with...jen and fran...the married couple to be...i hung out with dave and nikki foot (an amazing couple) and rach....i've seen a very apologetic martin pickles...who asks how stacy is doing...and yet no sign of hugh munro (who will be in very big trouble if he is still in b'ham)...this city seems to have a much different vibe than when i was here one month ago...walking through broomhill is even different...new shops...old shops upgraded...i have actually seen the peak district...i went to a town called hope and had my first cream tea...amazing...real cream, i hear, makes all the difference...and a walk through the cemetary...which makes me miss home (family reunions)...i walked through a church that was almost 1000 yrs. old...impressive...i'm not that easily impressed these days (something i'm trying to figure out) but this charming, quaint, little willage has impressed my wooly english socks off...at the end of this village stands a mountain...pedestrian streets lead back to it and there is a cave...the devilsarse....yes! indeed...you can go to it at www.thedevilsarse.com...not kidding...dave foot taught us how to play pooh sticks...which is much different than poo sticks..which, at first, is what i thought he meant...rach and nikki won...i lost...i claimed interference...a duck...crazy english ducks...they don't even quack...well, i must go...order of service to decorate...and i hear drew is coming tomorrow....love you all...e

2003-10-02T12:44:00.000-05:00

and the count down begins....i am having a rather unusual week...there is a boy here...his name is paul...he has dreads all the way down his back...and this is the least interesting thing about him...he gave me a piece of old lace...and a feather from a recently departed bird...he reminds me of every odd character that our boy johnny has ever played...benny of benny and joon...edward of edward scissorhands...and a few others...these are characters that you always wish you knew...you wonder when they will snap out of it...let me tell you...they don't...they sometimes just are...he is very tender hearted...and considerate...the second day he was here, when i was in half wake/ half sleep mode, i was convinced he was an angel...the fourth day he was here, same mode, i was convinced he was going to kill me...he didn't...

going to england on the 4th...will be there for 9 days...then i will be back in prague...i will pack my stuff and be outta here....

2003-09-25T09:56:00.000-05:00

brad...we will be poetry together....

2003-09-25T09:54:00.000-05:00

nathan r. cracks me up...even when you are having a bad day your blog makes me laugh...sorry...but it does...and after reading your blog i would have to say...unfortunatly that anne of green gables is one movie that i always love...not to mention the continuing story...and the continuing story...i know this doesn't fit the image i have always portrayed...but i can't help it...it is 12 hrs. of cheesy, girlie movie watching...and it finally works out for them...she finds herself and her man...and they live happily ever after...

i am so glad that stacy likes law and order...i hope you taped that episode...

eric...the hippie living in andrew and debbie's backyard told me yesterday that they have the entire pee-wee's playhouse on dvd...why is it so expensive again? i thought for sure i was the only person on the planet in love with paul rubens...e

2003-09-23T06:48:00.000-05:00

i was reading the blog of derek and amy...about justice..God being the judge...and i was thinking about what this guy said yesterday...God is judge means God sees...i like that...sometimes all i want is to be seen...good, bad, or ugly...does not matter sometimes...just seen....e

2003-09-23T06:39:00.000-05:00

happy birthday to Jay...a lovely lad i look forward to hanging out with when i get to austin...

i got felt up at Karlovy vary....it is a spa town...we spent the day driving through the czech republic and have a nice time checking out different towns...we get to Karlovy Vary...where i have been told i will relax in the comforts of natural minerals, swimming pools, and saunas...this i did happily until the moment some random man...who i thought from the beginning was following us...feels me up...and in natural spring water...dirty old man...luckily he was not too brave...he only tested the waters...so i only feel partially violated...other than that...it was a great day...spending time with rachel, who is about to leave, and jessica, who was awesome and said it was her treat...day spa is my love language...

shannon emailed me...i am in...i would add an exclamation mark but i cannot find it on this czech keyboard...so know that i say...i am in...with much excitement and enthusiasim...

i went with andrew, bruce, and rachel to hear tom wolfe teach this morning...i ran into a guy that knows my dad...he said, and i quote, but without quotation marks...keyboard...you are Robert Hughes daughter? i know Robert...and then told me some of the stuff that he does...he lives in St. Petersburg and my dad is going to hang out with them in oct...i was thinking that i might be able to trot myself over there to see what is up...although i had a run in with a naked russian in the sauna..different guy...speaking harshly to me in russian...apparently people get pretty upset when you leave the sauna door open...oops...

love you all...e

2003-09-21T12:31:00.000-05:00

i read a lot of blogs today...i've got such cool friends...e

2003-09-21T12:28:00.000-05:00

today i found myself wondering...am i one of the 8? or 6? or however many people will be living in the house in austin...i think...of course i am...and then...am i?...yes, yes, yes...then i think...what?...why?...i can't...do we know what we're getting ourselves into?...then...am i? have they forgotten me? did they think i was just kidding? was i? and then...commitment...that's what...we should be committed...no..we are committed...to one another...to a life of honoring Christ...to being in friendships that are real and lasting...to being in each others lives....to eat meals together...to be passionate about each other...to love and see each other...to learn from each other...to live with your teacher...that's frightening...but worth it i imagine....i do not doubt the reality of this decision...i do not doubt the day we cry and have hurt each others feeling...when we don't me each others expectations...when we feel all the things we feel when we are in relationship...i want to feel...i want to laugh really loud and cry really hard and experience the emotions that come with no longer being isolated...with deciding to be in each others space...to learn the balance of a part of instead of consumed by...to want to wash their feet when i feel let down...and to let them wash mine when i've let them down...to eat sausage balls at midnight (stace) and watch HBO with nathan...to learn from and be inspired by amy's creativity...to listen to brad...to wrestle with jess (i did kick your butt at greenbelt and you know it)...and to learn how to give by watching shannon who gives more self-lessly than anyone i know...i do not know who will live in this house...i don't know if i excluded someone....or included someone (maybe me) i did find out about this via blog thanks to nathan for being such an excellent blogger...i am cheesy...but excited...nervous...overwhelmed...intrigued...
it is true...we are nuts!

2003-09-16T13:51:00.000-05:00

2003-09-16T13:46:00.000-05:00

i am so ready to be in austin, tx...i want to get a job....i want to finish my degree...i'm sure i will change my mind tomorrow...about the degree anyway...maybe the job, too...maybe i'll come home sooner...maybe after jen's wedding...

happy to see that joel is blogging...that guy is cool...my AM's are different without his violin...

rachel and i have finished acts and deuteronomy....now we are on to revelation...what are we doing to each other? no...it's good...just a little intense...nothing like reading random laws over curry...e

2003-09-16T13:40:00.000-05:00

does it matter that i don't have a programming language...that i just picked one...does this quiz even know me?

2003-09-16T13:39:00.000-05:00

the latest quiz is right on...i am the slackware linux....i am...just kidding...although people do often mistake my brightness for insanity...e

2003-09-16T13:14:00.000-05:00

ok....i am gonna say this once and for all......I AM NOT SINGLE!!! I AM BUSY!!! yes, i do not currently have a boy that calls to annoy me 5,000 times a day...or to say that i shouldn't wear that pink thing again...or to tell me i laugh too loud...or to tell me that i smoke too many cigs...or to tell me that i should call my mom more often...or not use so much profanity...or to grow my hair out...or to cut it off...to dye it a different color or to stop dying it so many colors...to play silly jokes on me that i don't think are funny...or to stop singing back up for jessica in the kitchen when it is obvious that that girl is going places on the Justin Timberlake circuit...i am too busy...i can't see the fun in it...outside of the obvious fun in it (that is not allowed because i love Jesus)...and who wants to be tortured in a dating period when all you want to do is what is obviously fun...and you can't....and you think about some silly boy...and stop thinking about the J...don't get me wrong...i love boys...you all know that...they are very interesting creatures...but unless i can go from being busy to getting busy and it be righteous...i don't want any of it...well...maybe just a little flirting will be all good....

i just realized that i have amazing powers when it comes to getting a certain someone to stand on furniture and sing and dance....you know who you are girl....love you...e

2003-09-12T15:48:00.000-05:00

sendin' out some ted lovin'! it is hard! you are loved! i think about you a lot...how proud i am to have a friend that is so risky and adventurous...sing my jam tonight...you know the one...e

2003-09-12T15:38:00.000-05:00

oh...i forgot to let you in on what is actually going on....rachel and i are in praha...we go for long walks...play music...cook...bake each other cakes... get each other flowers...and read the bible out loud together...rachel told her dad that this was really "quite sweet" but i am sure that she has raised my dating standards...i would like to meet a boy that could spend this much time with me and still want to buy me a diet coke....love you rachel....you are amazing...e

2003-09-12T15:32:00.000-05:00

i can't...for the life of me....figure out what shannon is missing from reading my blog...for a moment i thought maybe she had another friend named erika that is blogging as well...so of course....i click on...and it's me...shannon, you will be happy to know that i have found your phone and charger in "deep storage" and it should now be safely in the giant peach....

in other news...i've finally heard from martin pickles...whose middle name is james...he is alive and well and living in sheffield...searching for a house in manchester...and working in london...what a life that martin pickles leads...i have informed him, however, that he should not be buying a house in manchester...but saving his money to move to austin...you will all love him in austin...he is amazing...a few of you know this already...

i do know stacy...really know her...i took the quiz and i passed...i got 8 questions out of 10 (2 of which i believe she answered incorrectly)...stacy, i know deep inside you would never choose north over south...what were you thinking...i am positive that she was tired...and in this case...it will be excused...

i am at yet another hip-hop night...wow...eastern european hip-hop...there is nothin' like it...no really...nothing like it...nothing like hip-hop!

so...thank you all for your prayers reguarding my sanity...i have been healed of my tree obsession...only now to be obsessed with other things...nathan herrington has convinced me that it would be ever so cool if everything was liquid...but still having form...i know that seems a bit sci-fi 1974...but, nevertheless, it would be cool...benefits not to be discussed at this time...but there are definite benefits!
i like words like...nevertheless and nowadays....these are words that everyone could learn to love...i also like the word elucidate....yeah baby....elucidate...

the funicular railway.....it is a railway that starts at the bottom of a hill and goes to the top of a hill....i no longer see any reason at all to walk....well, that is until i went for a hike in the sarka's this morning...it was beautiful! but a funicular railway would have been appreciated! funicular...why not?

2003-09-08T06:23:00.000-05:00

maybe i don't understand trees...i am ridiculously far from understanding...i want to be a tree sometimes because i don't want to make my own decisions...i would like for someone to tell me what to be and how to be and where to be and when to be there...i would like to be confused inside because i don't know why i've been told to do something instead of confused inside because life can be confusing...i would like to have something to look at and say...ok...that's what it is...i can see why people like to label things...it is often better than ambiguity...but ambiguity is so much more fun...not knowing...not knowing where a tram stop is is fine with me...but not knowing the things that i currently don't know is killing me...only because i know that i don't know things...i just don't know what things i don't know...i just know that i don't know them...i guess i'm ok with not knowing where things like tram stops are and the like because i at least know how to find that out...but i don't know how to "find out" God...i cannot find him out...i live in a riddle...i hate riddles...even after people explain them to me i sometimes still don't understand...so where does that leave me...i am certainly never the one that figures it out...God is not a riddle...he is God...so i guess that some people wrote the riddle...so...God is easy...i can trust God...riddles are hard...e

2003-09-08T06:10:00.000-05:00

i found myself being sad for trees yesterday....i am usually in awe of trees...all so big, well some are tiny (not usually in awe of tiny trees)...all so different...some are the same...but i'm talking about the ones that are different... i was riding up the fundicular railway (will explain later) i got off at the top and walked around...i suddenly found myself sad for trees...i thought...this prague tree will never be an italian tree...it is stuck...it cannot choose where to go or how big it gets or what color it is...i was sad that this tree would always be at the top of this hill...a great hill...but it will never move....then i was reminded of something andrew said this summer...he said that the sun shines and grass turns green in response to God's glory, justice, and rightness...then i was jealous of trees...this tree does exactly what it was created to do everyday...and with such ease...i hate trees...i am upset with a non-thinking, non-feeling object because it knows it's purpose...i find myself wondering a lot...not to be confused with wandering (for those that know me)....i do that a lot, too...i wonder though...wonder.....it becomes one of those words that change meaning when you say it too much...or write it too much...wonder..........God is wonderful.....wonder....i think i'm beginning to understand trees....e

2003-09-05T16:12:00.000-05:00

all i have to say is SCANDALOUS!!! i thought praha was cheap?! key word....cheap? no scandalous!!! see you when the sunrises tomorrow and i am on the charles bridge! e

2003-09-05T06:47:00.000-05:00

so i'm back in prague...really enjoying myself...yeah baby! i'm off to berlin next week if i can get a hold of the contact...wow...that was very mission impossible of me... that's how i feel here...i keep having these random fantasies about some czech mafia type man...who is obviously very handsome....saving my life because i've, in a very girlie manner, stepped inbetween some crazy drama goin' down...i, in this fantasy, am not the hero...i am always the girl in the background who just happened to be at the "wrong" place at the "wrong" time...always in the perfect outfit...always with perfect lipstick application...without looking in the mirror to apply...wait a minute...maybe i am the hero...
today is a very, big, red sunglasses day...obviously to go along with the fantasy...if it really does happen i wonder if i will be able to magically speak czech or if i will be subtitled...

prayers for russia trip....wanting to meet my dad there in oct....so pray for fundage....
keeping you all close to my heart....e

2003-09-04T08:43:00.000-05:00

today i must consider the ravens...e

2003-09-02T06:58:00.000-05:00

had to remind myself today that the J loves the church! why? i have no idea....he's amazing...that's all...e

2003-09-01T12:11:00.000-05:00

i am going to go ahead and say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to JESSICA!! i don't know when the next internet time for me will be....so i love you....and am hoping for this one to be cooler than hangin' out with an angel...e

2003-09-01T12:08:00.000-05:00

to put a few minds at ease...i am moving to austin...in nov., i will be there...it has been brought to my attention that stacy, lora, amy, nathan, shannon, and jessica are home...i have no walls in my life to call my home is all i meant....and sometimes a girl needs some walls...to look at, to hang pictures on, to cover in ridiculous girlie things....

on another note...i am finally leaving england...what? how have i been here for 2 months...although it has been great...i am ready for a bit of praha...to think about what happened this summer...to relax...to be able to buy groceries...i am so ready to be able to afford things...

thanks to all of you who are praying....i'm feelin' it baby....e

2003-08-28T07:32:00.000-05:00

aaaaahhhh....feeling stuck...feeling stuck...feeling stuck....

2003-08-27T09:15:00.000-05:00

i went two months this summer without finger nail varnish...on my fingers or toes...
or wearing necklaces...now i can't remember why i ever did...

this is to tell you how much i feel loved...jessica washed my hair...
i was at greenbelt and showers cost £2.50 and i was broke...so i went to a really nasty bathroom and took out my soap to wash my armpits (which hadn't been shaved) and to wash my face...a girl walks by and asks if i need shampoo...i believe she is an angel...jessica walks up and takes the shampoo and washes my hair...shannon comes in and pours cold water on my head and asks Jesus to renew me...to make me fresh...and to bring in life...jessica agrees with her...i agree with her....and i think that it touched me more than anything else this summer...i guess this meant so much to me because i'm the hairdresser...i am the one that washes hair...it's my job...but jessica washed mine...i feel loved...do you feel this loved by me...friends...an act of service that i really received...
friends of Jesus washed his feet...friends of e wash her hair...
...these three remain...faith, hope, and love....but the greatest of these is love...e

2003-08-27T08:59:00.000-05:00

i wasn't trying to be silly when i said "hello" before...i hate blogger and some of my blogs haven't been posted...it is just like me to blame blogger for my tech. problems...but it is easy to blame them...like cell phones...it is cloudy who you are actually blaming...but it is clearly not your fault...

confession #1: i took a shower yesterday for the first time in 10 days...gross!
confession #2: i washed my hair with soap on day #5
confession #3: i did not care for greenbelt...i enjoyed the people i was with....
not the event...how very post-modern of me
confession #4: i didn't know what post-modern meant, nor had i even heard
the word until last year...this is when i looked the word up and
read some books about it and found out that that is what older
people call people like me...so i am now refusing to ever use the
word again...which i'm sure proves their point...
confession #5: i don't know where i live...i do not have a house or apartment..
or even a city that i belong to...i have stayed in different homes
all over europe in the past 3 months and the longer i do that...
the more i realize that i don't know where i live...or where i'm from
or where i'm going...
confession #6: i don't mind calling the internet a form of church
confession #7: i don't mind you not believeing that internet is a form of church
confession #8: i feel like God is asking me to do things that are impossible...
confession #9: i don't know if i want to do them...
confession #10:i am scared.

2003-08-27T08:42:00.000-05:00

hello

2003-08-18T03:32:00.000-05:00

wow...i've been a naughty blogger....i do apologize for the laps....i've been a busy little bee...stacy did get here...and i don't know how anyone lives on the earth without knowing her...

happy to see that jay isn't still missing...we tracked you down, boy! can't wait to see you...

i will make a list of all the people i have met in the near future....just because i think it's cool...not because it means anything...i guess it makes some people feel good to see their name on a blog...so if i list them...they will feel good...

this is...A list....not THE list...
Rachel Hall, Abigail (who hates her last name), Hugh Alasdair David Munroe (is his last name with or without e), and Martin Pickles....these four have been an amazing part of my "sheffield experience"

Rachel Hall is my favorite face....
abigail (who hates her last name) is the one i look for at parties, and is the one that i am always excited to see, and the one i can hide in the corner with (very important)
Hugh Alasdair David Munroe (whose last name may be without e) is very comfortable...not like an old shoe or a blanket (which is what i thought he was like) but comfy...
Martin Pickles sings when he talks, and he speaks his own language (which Hugh pointed out as admirable...i agree) and who i have asked to send me a recording of him saying simple sentences to which he replied "Like, Jane goes to the bank?" yes martin pickles...just like that...
he said that he would as long as hugh would send me recordings of complex sentences...hugh did not reply...and i like this about hugh...
i really enjoy these people...and hope to stay in contact...we shall see...e

2003-08-04T21:44:00.000-05:00

oh and...jen andrews bought me a tiara...i wear it everyday as a reminder of my peeps...no longer adam...but the J...royalty...with a capital J...proving his love daily....e

2003-08-04T21:41:00.000-05:00

i am excited about the refreshment and encouragment of friends....can't wait to see stace...and i bet the camino at least gave jess a killer tan...amongst all the deep spiritual things...i want to make bread...and i hope my life isn't slowly falling apart...the kind of slow that you can see happening but you can't do anything about...i need a miracle and i want mexican food...be thankful and pray...e

2003-08-01T07:01:00.000-05:00

it is august 1 and i woke up with an email from my sister...family is so important...reconciliation...i love her but not only that God has been teaching me over the last couple of years how to like her and i'm finding it more important to like the people you supposedly love than to love them...well...love is the most excellent way...blah blah blah...but living with people that you want to be with and experiencing them everyday takes a lot more...and i don't mean whiskey...i can honestly say that she is one of the most fabulous people i know (and i just don't throw around words like fabulous) strong but sweet, loyal to the bitter end, never to give up on you, always hopeful that you will change, tender-hearted, a joy, one of the only people in the world that can make me laugh so hard i pee in my pants...almost everytime...i can't wait to see her...i miss you, steph...you are the coolest person i know and i admire you so much...i love you...e

2003-08-01T06:52:00.000-05:00

i have rediscovered why i hate email and blogging ...i am already a horrible communicator...made ever so slightly worse by the fact that i can't motion with my hands, adjust my head, and sigh in the right places...i can't make how i'm feeling sound sincere it always sounds harsh...and it always happens when i'm trying to be the most tender...(wait a minute...that happens in person,too)...i'm always shocked when i hurt a person's feelings because that is always the furthest from my heart...and the amazing thing about communication being that even if all that i said in person was said exactly the way i wanted it said that's not to say it will be heard exactly the way i meant it...i just find that it is all going to have to come down to a trust issue...i hope that my friends know the length and depth of my loyalty...i hope that there is a confidence between us that is deep trust...that i will not give up but fight...whatever that looks like... that i am here for the long run....and that the most important thing to me is being in friendship...deep and true...so the most important thing is you! to all the yous....e

2003-07-31T05:35:00.000-05:00

i saw the hulk...could somebody please give my those two hours back? i also saw brown sugar...a movie about hip-hop! of course i loved it! read two books this week, which in itself has got to make up for the hulk insanity...i reread to kill a mocking bird and then how to be good....both beautiful...i obviously would always recommend a classic but i would really recommend how to be good, too! it was great...the guy that wrote about a boy and high fidelity! i know for a fact that this blog is driving my mother crazy...she's an english teacher and i've underlined nothing...i've put nothing in italics....mwahahahaha...love you mom....

on another note.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SHANNON....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....
i have decided that if you know shannon...God must really love you! she is a true friend and just beautiful! have an amazing day, a fun night, and a great year..i love you e

2003-07-23T10:11:00.000-05:00

went a bit crazy there and forgot to tell you that bea and andy and myself were reading quotes and what not this morning and oscar wilde said this "every girl turns into her mother and that is her tragedy...no man ever does...and that is his!" brilliant oscar...just brilliant...i have been enlightened! my momma says "just cause it zips, don't mean it fits!"...i believe her to be just as brilliant!

2003-07-23T10:00:00.000-05:00

could someone in the states please check on Jay...as in dj jay...i fear he has gone off the blogging deep end....symptoms: sparatic blogging, yeah, that's all i have for symptoms thus far but he has 'em!

i have found myself missing my peeps a lot...especially today..this isn't normally something i would blog about...i believe i've become a lot more aggressive in blogging somethings and hiding in others...oh well, like i was saying, i miss my peeps! how lucky to be a girl in this world with such amazing friends...stacy, nathan, the other nathan, amy, lora....i suppose i'm missing austin as well...i miss smoking fruity cigarettes on the back porch...hearing amy make silly voices...hear stacy...yeah just hear stacy...if you know stace..you know what that means...i miss lora singing petra...really badly (sorry lora) and nathan talk about his disdain for the current rolling stones mag....(justin timberlake extravaganza!) i miss my nathan...houston nathan...best-friend in all the world nathan...lovely nathan...the nathan that i am waiting to hear from tomorrow...nathan who will sing me to sleep or make up a bedtime story where i am always the hero or the winner or the most beautiful or the princess...you know...obviously the nathan who feeds my monster! oh guys...you gotta have a friend that will feed your monster! nathan, i love and miss you...(weeping over my diet coke)

and i miss my peeps in h-town...oh wait...nathan is a peep from h-town...oh well...josh and amiee, andrea, trish, roy, ted (who currently lives a nomadic lifestyle that i greatly encourage and admire), chris and laura, justin, and so many more...i love you guys...i guess i'm just sendin' a "shout out" to the ones i'm thinking of...feeling really loved by God to know you all...feeling really special to share our lives...wow..i can be really cheese ball sometimes!

well i guess i'll go...suddenly feeling way too vulnerable...e

2003-07-22T12:58:00.000-05:00

bangers and mash...yeah...

2003-07-21T11:30:00.000-05:00

ok...right...so God has been saying...go ahead e...i dare you...ask me...see if i won't give you everything you need and more....so i can hardly wrap my mind around that before he totally challenges me again...he said very clearly to me last night "e, if i give you that hot pink harley would you be able to give it to someone else? would you use it to serve yourself or me...would you give it to someone even if in your eyes they don't seem to need it...or even if they don't and i just tell you to do it...would you honor me with your gifts?" this does seem to be his deal though...it makes perfect sense...well, as perfect as my brain can make out...and i guess he's not too concerned with what works out in me...is he...i have come to believe that he has not forgiven me just to forgive me...or choosen me just to choose me...or healed me just to heal me...ect. but he has done these things and gifted me or given me all that i need to do this for others...why would i think differently about the gifts he gives me in the physical...i mean...i am suppose to live as if every breath belongs to God and that everything i have belongs to him...then i can be perfectly content with wherever i am...go paul...he got it....you can't steal from me...i don't own anything anyway...i have nothing...it all belongs to God...and he has so much...yes...he has a whole storehouse that he is waiting to pour out on me...and the rest of his children...if my hands weren't so busy grasping onto the things that i want...or the things that i have clenched in my hands so that they don't slip away...then i could hold on to the things God gives...basically...would i be content...i don't know...but i would certainly like a go at it...

cheesy 80's intermission:
i am a man who would fight for your honor...i'll be the hero you're dreamin' of....
somethin' forever...knowin' together..we did it all for the glory of love!

this song is playing at the internet cafe i am in...and the walls do look like cat vomit!
e

2003-07-19T08:12:00.000-05:00

so i'm reading through the gospels...yeah...so be like jesus...right...i'm realizing how very unlike him i am...i'm not terribly upset considering he has been teaching me about grace! however, i am excited to be learning to be all encompassed by christ...woo-hoo! well, in luke something or other he says to pray as if you have already received...so currently i'm praying as if i have received a hot pink harley davidson with pink leather saddle bags...you see i have quite got it yet i'm sure...the concept i mean...but i thought i would try...bea is thinking along the lines of hot pink vw camper van...i think God wants to do it! why not...i figure if he has clothed the flowers of the field...he's ready to get right on to doing stuff like that for me...and he has...but i think he wants to release more...more of who he is...i just need to release all that i am holding on to...inside and out so that he can fully give and i can fully receive...on the flip side of that...i have also been inclined in the last week to ask him more often what would make him laugh...what would make him happy...what would bless him? i really want him to be satisfied with me...and i want him to want to hang out with my peeps...and whatever would make him uncomfortable...i would like to get rid of...

sidenote...the people bea and i prayer stalked the other day have called to hang out today...we are going to a prayer festival...so we decided to see if they wanted to do sunday afternoon tea...which in american english means lunch...pray for us...that God would say through us what he wants...wow...the girl just now rang bea and said that they would love to have tea...meeting tomorrow at 1...so be praying...

by the way...i am learning quite a few english phrases in exchange for my texan phrases...not to mention all the savory dishes i am learning to prepare...

love you and take care....e

2003-07-17T13:13:00.000-05:00

bea and i did a bit of "prayer stalking" today...it was great! met a couple of people that God really set out before us, and they actually ended up asking for the exchange of phone no.! maybe prayer stalking is my spiritual gifting...e

2003-07-13T15:29:00.000-05:00

God is delivering me through intimacy...he likes me! he is not allowing me to forget his wholeness...that he is father, son, and spirit! he wants me for all of himself...he wants to love me as father, son, and spirit...he wants to deepen my understanding of what that means since i am not such an intellectual!

by the way...i found out where the moon sleeps!...e

2003-07-09T08:34:00.000-05:00

sometimes i don't like being a girl...yesterday was hard because i was overly emotional...which makes everything more intense and blurred...i don't like wavy lines...i like stuff to be straight...things are wavy now...but straightening out...ok...that's it for this super emotional e...still missing my sadie!!

2003-07-08T08:26:00.000-05:00

i am really walking across spain for all you unbelievers! i am in a remote village walking...and walking...and walking...i have had some interesting times with God and people and had a realization about myself...and i guess life in general...nothing new to anyone i'm sure...i am just beginning to understand that it takes just as much strength to admit where i am as it does to get where i am going! that certainly is a load off....maybe i will start to listen when i hear words of wisdom such as these...but i probably won't understand them until i go through it anyway! really starting to understand the journey thing though is priceless to my life...i don't have to run, run, run...i can stop and take a rest when needed...or a bus...and it isn't shameful if it is a need...if what God has for me is there...waiting for me to rest...He really is calling me to lay aside the worries of my day! to be quiet! what! i have only this tiny voice inside that wants to stop and quiet down...to just be...i takes to much to just be...but when i can is the moment that God gets really clear...when i am self-controlled and not filling myself with endless junk to keep myself busy...but there is some seriously cool junk that i find myself wanting on a regular basis....Shannon says everyday(and i listen each day with disdain) "i look to the hills...for i know where my help comes from!" my disdain comes from two places...knowing that she is speaking truth that i can't seem to swallow and from the fact that i have been tracking up hills everyday and she usually says it when i'm on my third break on one hill!...when is a hill considered a mountain? sorry, tired!...

2003-07-02T14:27:00.000-05:00

trying to convince friends not to stay in pamplona to run with the bulls...they are crazy...or maybe i'm boring...no...they are crazy!!!

2003-07-02T14:20:00.000-05:00

i really miss sadie...i know that she would love europe...she is so much cuter than any dog i've seen so far...and sweeter...i hope she remembers me...i had a nightmare last night that my sister bleached her hair white and was torturing her...i guess that means i miss her...i've never dreamed about her...

ok...enough of the saddness...onto the maddness...yes kids..i am walking the camino de santiago beginning tomorrow...could somebody please shoot me...te he he...just kidding..sort of...nobody actually told me how long this thing was...not to mention NOT showing me a map...what is it about spain man...nobody ever walks across TX...it's just as blasted hot...except at night...when it is extremely cold...

ok...enough of the maddness...i guess that leaves...mmmmm...gladdness? ok, so i am with amazing people right now...linnea, theresa, jessica, shannon, derek and amy, robby and grace, and the jones...we are official pilgrims now...the official pilgrims "passport" and all...i thought about renting a horse for some of the way... but if you know us...you know we already look like a bunch-o-freaks...add a horse to the mix and it would be way over the top...needless to say...riding a horse might kill me...

thinking about worship in the changing church...where would God like us to be? where is he taking us? i can't honestly say i have a clue...

saddness, maddness, gladdness, and thinking about the church.....yeah, that's enough...e

2003-06-29T13:26:00.000-05:00

so..i just wrote this seriously long blog and deleted it....not working with a full deck today....basically...i am learning a lot about myself...a lot about the J...a lot about community...first of all....lots of things change when you shave your legs in a public fountain, sleep in parking lots on the autostrada, and change into a swimsuit in the middle of a camp ground....you just do´n't care so much about some things anymore...like what your hair looks like...yeah right...that always matters...well i am learning a lot about God...Jesus is answering my prayers and i guess he always has i just never gave him credit for it or i was on to the next request...i am learning more about passion and desire, which i am sure is a real shocker to you considering you know that i am in europe...italy, france, spain just sorta reek of passion...the J and i went on a date last night...Chinese food and booty dancin'...he loves that stuff...i never knew how much he really wants to be included in that...and why not e...he does love those people more deeply than you could understand...he is such an inclusive God...he wants everyones heart...not to mention the fact that he sho' did create the booty...well, so many other things are happening that i don't even have the time right now to blog them...meeting amazing people....leaving tomorrow to go on a pilgrimage 500miles to santiago...you can pray for my feet....much love to Ted, Josh and aimee...who have given me on of the greatest things i needed....their voices....thanks for the wonderful cd guys...i love you.....e

2003-06-17T04:37:00.000-05:00

today is the birthday blog...i woke up to a cool breeze on the side of a mountain in tuscany...i know you are all feeling sorry for me...but i am gonna make it...i am here with linnea and jessica...they sang happy birthday to me and i blew out a tea light candle and ate my birthday sticky bun, that was awesome, you know...made this morning...bought in the market...wow...somehow, although this is amazing...i miss my family....i was born on my sisters 3 birthday and on fathers day...so i miss celebrating with them this year...no three part harmony birthday song...i was happy to get an email from my sister this morning though...it was i picture of her wearing a happy birthday hat and the words to "OUR" birthday song..."you say its your birthday...nuh,nuh,nuh,nuh,nuh,nuh...its my birthday, too" have an awesome day steph...i am officially embarking on my mid-twenties....24 today...
and do not forget your daddies last sunday was daddy day!!!!
i love you dad...you are the greatest man i know....e

2003-06-10T16:23:00.000-05:00

hello...hello....hello...i feel like i've been echoing into a canyon for the past few days....everything is bouncing off some random rock and comes back smacking me in the face...i'm ready to go...but it seems like in everything i do...i should add about a day and a half and maybe then it will happen....J....help me be flexible....i am missing people...but i'm going to have a great summer...so it seems to all be ok....tomorrow am (hopefully) a small band of girls will head to croatia and then whip around to italy...wow...what would Jesus do?...he probably wouldn't lay on the beach topless...well, maybe he would...i really hope that we hook up with some people on the trip...we're hoping to connect and start on the pilgrimage Assissi style....(you wouldn't believe that if you saw the amount of crap we are taking)....i did say a small band of girls....i hope to check email as often as possible...i may be slow...oh...much praise to the amazing nathan and amy russell....french inhaling is the sign of a true disciple....Master E

2003-06-05T07:49:00.000-05:00

my heart is full....i went to the Jewish Quarter this week....God is speaking to me so personally right now....asking me to join in his suffering...if you know anything about me you know that I LOVE TO FEEL GOOD....not so much do i even want the word suffer to be in my vocabulary...but he is also being very lavish right now...he knows i'll break this summer...walking to the peach after being out that day i found in him a place of comfort that i haven't ever known...basically he is giving me things right now that he didn't even have....no place to lay his head....but he promised to become that for me....what will i become as a result of my God-shaped pillow, obviously made of red silk and plush velvet (he knows me so well) i have a flashing light inside that says it's about to be rough....but i'll get to take my pillow...i really want that to be enough...resting and waiting....e

2003-06-02T09:00:00.000-05:00

i'm feeling so honored today...i found myself on the skinny's blog....that must mean that i have come to some new level of righteousness....could you have picked a more unflattering picture andrew?? come on now...i do find myself asking the same question as the skinny....where are the men?...i mean come on...no..no..no...i'm totally kidding...e

2003-06-02T08:55:00.000-05:00

my brain simply refuses to process...maybe because i process on so many levels....sight apart from sound apart from touch....so basically....ask me about this trip next year when i've figured it out....i'm having an awesome time...but i'm sure none of you were thinking..."wow, i bet e's having a horrid time in prague!"....and if you were thinking that let me say it again....cz rocks...gimme a P...P....gimme an R...R.....ect....you have to pay for time here so that's all the cheer you get....we'll skip to the end....what's that spell? PRAGUE.....yell it again...PRAGUE....for those of you still reading after that...i hear we are going on pilgrimage...whatever...i am so american it hurts....everything is uphill in this city....can i get a slope please? on a sidenote you can pray...that i am money wise....transportation wise...and that my feet don't fall off...i have come to three conclusions....one: you cannot be fat in this city....two: if you come to this city fat, you don't leave fat...three: if you leave fat, you didn't do anything.....like i said...everything uphill....love you...e

2003-05-31T15:59:00.000-05:00

i have a date with prague tonight...tell you all about it later...ok...maybe not ALL about it....e

2003-05-30T08:50:00.000-05:00

hey guys...i'm here...totally ignoring jet lag...wow...what a great space i landed into and on....jess and samuel picked me up from the airport in jess's rockin' new car...which just so happens to be my favorite color.....RED....then off to derek and amy's where i actually have my own bedroom...ok...sidenote...the j really rocks...i was preparing myself for simple....a couch...or a bed in someone else's room....no...i've got a bedroom....go J...then to the giant peach where we took the Lord's supper with jewish rye bread (larger than the main dish)...and hungarian style goulashe...(i think that's how you spell it)....i had no idea that andrew could cook...and some awesome dessert that debbie made...a dog named hansel...who looks like a tiny version of sadie that will keep me connected to her...today an internet cafe....a hairdresser....and a body piercer....with derek and amy....i'm home...e

2003-05-26T23:19:00.000-05:00

in 45 mins. i can actually say..."i'm leaving tomorrow!"...hip...hip...HOORAY!!! itz gettin' hot in hur!! Texas summer...i won't miss you...e

2003-05-21T00:48:00.000-05:00

you know what?...no...truth never sucks...i'm just aching for heaven...the strongest places of false safety have been ripped from my hands...i would stay clinging to them, but that reality has been so shattered by light and truth that i can't possibly deny God...Jesus, i've got nothing but you...my family isn't mine...i'm leaving...and i'm leaving them to you...guide my steps to chase the spirit that lives within me and goes before me...vulnerably yours, e

2003-05-21T00:38:00.000-05:00

sometimes truth sucks and reality is hard to live in...

2003-05-20T15:44:00.000-05:00

i feel celebrated and beloved...rejoiced in and supported...i was overwhelmed...thank You Jesus for friends...the quantity and quality i soak in...thank you for being interested in my life...for caring about parties and presents (that i do love so much)...if feel like you all see right through me and stay for the show anyway...maybe even enjoy it...i couldn't be in love with the J without being in love with you...knowing you is knowing him...the beauty of you is only a snapshot of who God is...seen as his image...you entice me toward him.......if two spend their lives trying to look at each other only, they will never be open to the absolute fullness in God of which this friend is only a taste -Paul Hinnebusch...or...as erasure put it.."how can i explain when there are few words i can choose...how can i explain when words get broke e e een!"...love you all...you thought you had rendered me speechless....mwahahahahah....e

2003-05-17T01:57:00.000-05:00

oh...i forgot to mention...my mom had great packing advice that i thought i would share with all of you since many of you may be going on adventures of your own...she says: "pack everything you think you need! then...take out half of your clothes and take twice the money!" she also says "Just 'cause it zips...don't mean it fits!" however that is totally not packing related (i think it has something to do with how tight i wore my bluejeans in highschool) and on the packing advice...i can take out half my clothes but twice the money? do i have a sugar daddy? yes...his name is "J" or Josh or Jesus if that makes you, reader, more comfortable! but he has not given me a budget as of yet....so i guess i can tell him..."mom says double it!" we shall see...crazier things have happened...and he has it bad for her...(totally in love)...e

2003-05-17T01:48:00.000-05:00

if being a christian is living beyond my own abilities and understanding then i'm probably not one...but i'm becoming...
or is that simply working out my salvation? i hate working out...e

2003-05-16T20:14:00.000-05:00

just so everyone knows....I DO NOT...I REPEAT....DO NOT...KNOW HOW TO CREATE LINKS...I AM NOT COMPUTER LITERATE!!!...AND I'M A HORRIBLE SPELLER AT THAT...all of the links i currently have were done by nathan r....so i apologize if i have offended the masses with my ignorance...i hope that i will still be accepted within the blogging community...e

2003-05-15T20:26:00.000-05:00

sadie went under the knife today...sadie is my precious, precious dog...she's going to have an adventure of her own while mommy is traveling Europe...she's going to stay on a couple of acres in the country with aimee's mom (thanks aimee and mom)...needless to say, she had to be fixed...my poor baby...i haven't had her spayed until now because i'm so against people only allowing the beautiful breeds to be worthy of reproduction...i found her...she's a mut...and i love her...and she would make amazing babies...however, we had a little talk...she does not believe in no sex before marriage no matter how many times i make her listen to DC Talks "i don't want no sex"..so i can't come home from Europe and be mommy to 8 to 12 puppies...therefore, despite my rigid beliefs (and sadness that not all dogs are considered beautiful and reproduction worthy) she went under today...still a bit sleepy...but ok....

still packing...e

2003-05-14T14:00:00.000-05:00

i dig the Thailand idea that a few (jess and shan) are talking up...i also dig the "high-Q" that ted wrote for me on his blog...

right back atcha: uh ummm...

any Ted that does
not go to Californ'ya
is no Ted of mine.
on another note.....HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO PACK FOR 6 MONTHS ALL THAT I NEED INTO ONE BACKPACK!!!!
ok...i guess i could tell myself that just because i've gotten rid of so much clothing does not mean that i have arrived at simplicity...
it is not simple at all to pack half of your stuff into one suitcase when half your stuff still equals too damn much...Lord, help me in my hour of need realize that one halter top is as good as ten...and that soap is enough to clean my body when all i want in a bath is equal to all the stock at bed, bath, and beyond reasonable....will four pairs of shoes really be enough?! and how is that possible?! could someone please email and tell me that you'll love me even if i don't reach the "e" standard of living?...could someone email and tell me that the "e" standard of living is excessive and ridiculous...we're all laughing but somehow it's not funny anymore...i'm tired of valuing things...and i'm tired of things controlling the way i feel...but i love shoes....and hats....and purses....and...and...and....i refuse to let old navy keep me from God....OLD NAVY....have i really been falling to my knees in honor of the Gap?...what's sad is this is something that i feel like i should have squashed at least 5 yrs. ago....and for the Gap?....the Buffalo Exchange?...there have literally been times when i chose to shop instead of eat! this is a sickness is it not! well...it won't win...i'm gonna win...i vow that i will only take one backpack to Prague this summer..and inside will be just what i need...no more...no less....well....maybe one extra halter...e

2003-05-13T02:59:00.000-05:00

wisdom with pedicure today...
"all plenty that is not my God's is poverty to me." -st. augustine (i think)

today:
cafe mundi with shannon, fat tire, and cute boy at noon (obviously sent by satan to distract
me from a hard conversation...luckily i had the self-control to not use my powers for evil)
manicures and pedicures...(i will never darken the doorway of tips and toes again)
to nathan and amy's to finish coloring nathan's hair
everyone over to bless Robby and Grace as they head off to Thailand (in a few hrs.)
(have fun and remember...a jedi's gotta do what a jedi's gotta do)
(see you in a few.....across the ocean)...look out ted...that was almost a haiku
then back to stacy's where i almost had to sleep outside on the sidewalk...with the strays...e

2003-05-12T02:06:00.000-05:00

ha..ted said splitting hairs! i am feeling much better...after an awesome day with friends in austin...i drove here a weeping mess but i will leave here refreshed and encouraged...thanks to friends that love...love...love...and laugh (not to mention take me to see a killer movie)...they also buy amazing cigs...(was i not suppose to say that?)

on a semi-related story....i am, and think that you all would be, totally impressed with Nathan Russell's extensive collection of VBS songs and pledges...i would love for that to be added to the home video film page....do do...do do!

i'm excited about leaving...16 days?...who's keeping up with this for me....i will see jess soon...i miss her...it is fate that we be together for a time...we are the same X-MAN...

now i'm off to bed and book...my speedy typing skills are keeping stacy awake...sleep tight stace....e

2003-05-11T13:01:00.000-05:00

Love is...the most excellent way...if i speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, i am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. if i have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if i have a faith that can move mounains, but have not love, i am nothing. if i give all i possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, i gain nothing. Love is..patient, kind...it does not envy...it does not boast...it is not proud...it is not rude or self-seeking...it is not easily angered...it keeps no record of wrongs...it does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth...it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres....LOVE NEVER FAILS!!!! But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. for we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappeares. when i was a child, i talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child. when i became a man, i put childish ways behind me. now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. now i know in part; then i shall know fully, even as i am fully known. and now these three remain: faith, hope and love... but the greatest of these is love...

i pray this over myself today and confess that i do not know the first thing about love...Jesus teach me your love...i also haven't the first clue how to love my family...come to think of it i don't know the first thing about receiving love from my family...Praise Jesus for fully knowing me...help me to accept that i will only ever know in part...help me not use that as an excuse for not knowing at all...if love encompasses these things...i better get on the ball...i fear i'm far behind...
totally lacking in perfection and unhappy about it...e

2003-05-09T23:03:00.000-05:00

so...you know that scripture....if your hand causes you to sin, cut it off? i say...if your hair causes you to sin, cut it off! so i shaved my head...i've spent a lot of my life recreating myself...trying to figure out who i am...basically trying to be more of what i wasn't and less of what i was...when i became a hairdresser most of me became a hugh question mark....drastically changing my image on a regular basis..so i started to ask the J some questions...he told me there was too much stuff....i was choking on stuff....i owned so much stuff...so i started with furniture...got rid of it...a few months later i got rid of some clothes...13...30lb. garbage bags full...then i sold some stuff (like my car)....and then i gave away or sold a few more bags of clothes...i would be scared to tell you how much...and then J said "e" (cause Jesus calls me e) "you didn't even care about your car, it sounds like a great sacrifice....but...how about you really look at yourself...and find inside yourself what you value more highly than me...when you figure it out...you'll know what to do." so...my image is worth more to me than God....so i shaved my head because that's a big part of it for me..not only that, i am tired...and i'm running out of ways to recreate myself...and i've never been happy with any of them anyway...hair, being a big part of how i express myself, has been one of the things holding my freedom captive...a possession that i've refused to part with...so i'm giving up my expression for God's expression...i hope it's a good one...e

2003-05-08T21:34:00.000-05:00

Nathan has a new place for the summer...we have ritualistically shaved each others heads (#3) woo-hoo....freedom...tell you more about that later...what a great day...i have exactly 20 days until i head off to Prague...what? what am i doing? oh wait a minute, we've already been through this! well, i guess since i'll be leaving the good ol' U.S. of A., i'm enjoying a few of America's favorite past-times....today...baseball with Roy...Astros game...foot-long hot dogs...i did not know that that many people could go to a stadium at 1pm on a Thurs...do these people work?...well, i couldn't tell you who won considering i don't give a lick about baseball....and now Nathan is putting in Ms. Badu, making whole wheat spaghetti, salad, killer dressing, and now i smell bread..(mmm...yum) and lighting candles...are we celebrating something?....sure we are...it's thursday!!! you should celebrate, too! after dinner it's painting pottery in the living room!...i hope you have an equally compelling evening...wherever the evening finds you....e

2003-05-08T01:05:00.000-05:00

so...yeah...i'm blogging. i don't know what this means for you...but for me? i have arrived! it is true that we (Josh, Aimee, Ted, Roy, Chris, Laura, Dirty D, and Shannon) cut a rug at the wild west dance club in H-town...in celebration of Aimee's birthday...phew...it was a hoot! don't ever let anyone tell you that country isn't cool....i know that's right! no, no, no...i'm kidding...if you know me, it's booty dancin' all the way....of course...you wouldn't have known it to look at us...we were hot....we were sooo hot...hot like a certain someone, if you know what i mean...well that was last night...tonight we celebrate Roy....hooray Roy...we went to dinner (same we + a few - a few) and then off to the movies to see X-Men....heck yeah...then....unfortunately...or adventurously...ted's car was mysteriously taken away...luckily after the movie a few of us realized our super powers....ted has the amazing power of blacking out and never remembering unpleasant happenings...and i (no lie) have the power of teleportation...now, i know this seems shady considering we just saw the movie..but i have eye witnesses to the fact that i took the "what is your magic power" quiz from quizilla....and guess what...BINGO baby...teleportation...
love you-mean it....e